I Am Alive and Safe

Hello.

It’s been a long time since I wrote on this blog. I just came back to post a few life updates.

During this coronavirus pandemic, I’ve managed to stay ~healthy, meaning I’m infection free. My family seems fine, too. We moved out of our city to my dad’s hometown for the duration of this long-standing community quarantine, and it took some adjustments on everyone’s part to make this shelter we have feel a bit like home. During the lockdown, my weight has see-sawed and my emotional state has been rocky. There are times I feel gloom, uncertainty, and despair, while the other I feel like I’m just taking a vacation. A never-ending vacation that makes me want to go back to work already.

I didn’t bring any doll because I thought this community quarantine wouldn’t last that long, so most of my dolls are in storage back home, or left unattended on their shelf. When I come back, I will have lots of washing and scrubbing to do because my dolls would probably be dusty by now. I also left behind some of my plants, like my cactus collection, and other stuff that I use for my hobbies such as my guitar and yoga mat. 

I cannot find the motivation to study Hungarian further right now, and I think that’s OK. Sometimes it may feel like there’s competition among people to be productive during this time, but I tell myself that I am fine without learning a new language or being active for days. Hungarian can wait.

I tried long distance walking. Being in this town surrounded by nature has made it easy for me to go outside and walk, but lately I haven’t done it because of the rainy season, or because I’m demotivated. Again I keep telling myself that it’s OK that I have not been consistent. I just know in my heart that I can do this some other time. I mean, I was able to manage walking around 10,000 steps a day. That’s already an achievement for myself because I never did walking as an exercise!

I cannot format this blog post at this moment. I am typing this on my phone. I don’t have wi-fi here so I haven’t opened my laptop in months.

There are so many things I have yet to write about, but maybe that’s for another blog post.

I know this is supposed to be a toy blog, but I barely go outside and find toys at the store. I don’t even have my toys with me, lol. There’s practically nothing I can do that’s related to toys out here, except for me looking up toy photos on Facebook and Instagram (IG eats up my phone data like crazy so I don’t spend so much time on it than I would like) or reading doll posts on Reddit (Don’t use their app if you have limited data! I had to uninstall it!).

Hope everyone reading my blog is safe and infection free. Can’t wait for this thing to be over so we can start anew.

Jamie

P.S.

I can’t reply to blog comments yet for some reason. Will get back to you all soon. Thank you for your patience.